Secret Fetish

NSFW. I DO NOT OWN ANY PICTURES. I am a married man and this is my secret: I crave cock; I want to give someone head. i want to feel a dick inside me once. I have never been penetrated and wonder what that would feel like. i want to feel someone cumming inside of my ass.

I have had previous experience with a TS many years ago. She was my first and only experience of the kind. I would visit her about 4/5 times a week. We cuddled some, talked a little but mostly I would visit just to suck her cock, which was a good size about 10 or 11 inches of thick meat. I let her talk me into paying back the favor one time in return and that was it. I was hooked. As much as I love a good blowjob I began to love giving her one. Once she caught on that I was addicted I had to start "talking her into" blowing me. Though there was never a doubt that I was going to give her the best head she ever had. But that's as far as it ever went. Now years later I still can't get that out of my mind. I had been suppressing this for a long time until about 2 months ago. I don't know what happened. However, I can no longer contain this inside of me. I need an outlet this is one way for me to release but come now we all know this is just a blog. I need some real life action. Fantasy is good and serves its purpose however I need to live out some fantasies too. Now I''m not into "dudes" per say. You have to be feminine or create the appearance of femininity; cd's/ts/ladyboy/shemale; you get it. So whatever that makes me that's what I am. Do I love women and pussy and love what real women are and represent? Hell yeah! Do I love the before mentioned just as much? Hell yeah!